Stardust

I had this plan on how I was gonna get off this fentanyl addiction, because I’m not even gonna lie, it’s ugly as fuck and I was a little scared about doing it. I stockpiled like 60 subs and the plan was to just take some xanax, sleeping through the first day or two and […]

Purgatory

A little over 14 years ago I made the dumbest, weakest mistake that I have ever made. It’s actually my one regret. 43 years and I’ve only got one regret? I mean that’s not bad, or at least normally it wouldn’t be. Except this mistake cost me absolutely everything. 14 years ago, the day before […]

RIP Cody

So I found out tonight that a close friend, one who survived the test of time, past away last night in his bed. Foil next to the bed accompanied somewhere close by the guilty blu who slew my friend. This one fucked me up. I’m super sad. And right next to the sorrow, the grief, […]

Hold Fast

Just so you know, I think you’re doing a fantastic job. I think you are beautiful and magical and wonderful. The world can be a cold shot. People suck. Society is flawed. Life can be rough. We all have piles of reasons why we could give up, why we could go left as fuck and […]

Oh how the mighty have fallen

It’s a trip what can happen in a years time, how much can happen, how much can change. Same time of the year one year ago, my life is a complete flip. Where I was financially secure, more then doing ok last year, this year I’m hit. Broke as fuck, just barely getting along. Riddled […]

Falling Off

When I first began writing this blog I would have a few people like a blog that I wrote. Occasionally I would get a comment or two. My following, although slow was growing and I at least felt as is if someone was reading the shit I would write. That doesn’t seem to be the […]

Go figure

My truck had been the light at the end of the tunnel. It was my escape hatch, the thing I was gonna use to elevate myself out of this shit hole I manage to find myself in. Ever since I’ve got the truck I have been working on it, trying to shore it up, trying […]

Wordsmith

I think I’ve always kinda liked to write. I remember when I first learned about the internet and my excitement over the opportunity to talk shit to people in far away places. Then when I got out of prison the first time and my buddy introduced me to Facebook, telling me I’d be able to […]

People suck

It’s pretty shitty that the quality of people has dropped so low. Maybe it’s always been like this but I’m not so sure. I feel like when I was a kid people were way different. I feel like they cared about each other more and weren’t so low rent. I feel like morals and integrity […]

And I’m out

I think I’m gonna leave on Friday, possibly Saturday morning. Regardless by this time next week I’ll be gone. Off to new adventures, new experiences, new people. A new life. I am excited. There’s gonna be some shit I will miss, some people, but not many. This has all gotten to be rather cumbersome, so […]