More often than not

So when I was a kid, one of my girlfriend’s friend told her, “If you hang out with dogs you’re gonna get fleas.” That shit pissed me off. Like fuck you bitch I’m not no dog. But with time comes hindsight, and looking back it looks a little different, and while that bitch can still […]

Long Strange Trip it’s Been

My journey to active addiction began at the tender age of 8, where I took my first hit of weed. Now I know you’re gonna tell me that weed’s not a drug and I’m gonna stop you there by telling you I couldn’t agree more. But for me it’s not so much what, but why? […]

Changes

It never fails to amaze me exactly how fast it takes for a person to completely flip script on you. One minute being absolutely ok with the person that you are and the next, being repulsed by you, criticizing and second guessing everything you say or do. It’s insane how people can completely forget all […]

The Buck Stops Here

Unfortunately, I don’t have a scapegoat. I don’t have a one armed man or a grassy knoll. I have no one to blame but me. It would be nice to pass the buck, to blame it on this or that. It would be lovely to be able to point at something or someone and pass […]

The book

So I’m gonna attempt to write a book. I feel like I have a pretty legitimate idea for a book that could possibly make me some money. I’m not sure how all of this is gonna play out because I don’t know how exactly to go about it, but I feel like that will all […]

The Curse

The Curse of indifference is exactly that. The need to be accepted can be an extremely powerful motivator, driving people to all kinds of impressive places. Driving them to do some pretty amazing things. So the knowledge that I’ll never feel that kind makes me feel like I got robbed. There is also security in […]

Blessings

I was born with the gift of indifference, which I consider to be both blessing and curse. If I wasn’t born with it I developed it soon after birth because I really can’t remember a time when I was concerned with the thoughts, feelings or opinions of others. I could care less what you believe […]

What if?

And if there was no tomorrow, would you be satisfied with how you spent today? Would you regret something you said? Something you did? Something you didn’t do? Or did you live today to its fullest potential, took it for all it was worth and just killed the game? I personally could have done better, […]

Court

I fucking hate court. I’ve been going to court since I was 12 years old, with the majority of those judgements against me and not for me so needless to say, I’m not a fan. The last two times I went to prison I legitimately begged the judge for help, claiming all of the problems […]

We don’t need no water, let the motherfucker burn.

A year ago, during the driest time of the year, some maniac went along the bike path and every certain distance, he would set a fire. He set a bunch of fires, I think the homie said like 5 but I’d be willing to bet more then that, a fire raging through town/city to town/city […]