If I could do it all over again

It’s my little godson, Kaidyn’s 9th birthday today. His parents got him a 3D swimming pool. Huh? That’s a thing? I got him some Spiderman LEGOs and a Spiderman smartwatch. The future. Shit sure has changed since I turned nine. By the time I was eight I was already smoking weed. Instead of a 3D […]

No Clue

I have absolutely zero idea what I’m doing. Not the slightest idea. I can sometimes pull off looking like I’m at least somewhat there, but don’t let that fool you. Clueless. I’m just stumbling through life like a drunken pirate, courting every bit of the trouble that I’ve managed to get myself into throughout my […]

Hallucinations

It’s crazy how real my delusions can be sometimes, no pun intended. They feel so real that it can sometimes twist up my mind, almost allowing me to believe them completely and just go all of the way left, but not quite. The intellectual part of mind, my genius IQ, those are what save me. […]

A happily ever after?

I’ve always said that the only way that we are gonna fix this fucked up problem is through the children. We have to teach and influence our children positively so they become better then we are. They do the same for their kids and eventually, voila, things get better. That’s probably legitly the only thing […]

A Friend with Weed

Marijuana is and always will be my “drug” of choice. I started smoking weed when I was 8 years old, which yes I agree, is almost definitely to early an age to start for a normal person. But I’m not normal. And I’m barely a person. For me, weed is absolutely medicine. I do, of […]

Living the Dream

My life hasn’t been the easiest. It hasn’t been puppy dogs and rainbows and shit. It’s been my experience that life isn’t fair and the world is a cold, unforgiving place full of suffering and pain. That’s not to say that my life has sucked, although it has at times, there have also been some […]

Family

Family ain’t always blood. In fact it’s been my experience that blood means very little to most so more often than not, your friends are more family then blood will ever be. That’s not to take away from the importance of blood and heritage. It’s just what it is. Today I’m on an adventure with […]

Was there ever really a choice?

I understand that everything is just a matter of choices. Go this way, all these roads open, yet others are closed. It all just boils down to what did you choose to do? So I understand the concept of choice. But what if the universe is just peppering your life with a certain kind of […]

Paranoia

I’ll be coming out of the gas station, masked up of course, and I’ll see this car rolling through the gas islands. Just creeping by and I immediately feel like they are watching me or looking for me or following me. Like all over I get this feeling that everyone is suspect, everyone is shady […]

Battle Lust

My time management is trash. I can’t seem to pull it together. It’s almost like I’m stuck in molasses, like I’m living life in slow motion at times. I make plans and I truly do intend to stick to the plan but as things happen shit changes and the ETA steadily drifts further from its […]