Living the Dream

My life hasn’t been the easiest. It hasn’t been puppy dogs and rainbows and shit. It’s been my experience that life isn’t fair and the world is a cold, unforgiving place full of suffering and pain. That’s not to say that my life has sucked, although it has at times, there have also been some […]

Family

Family ain’t always blood. In fact it’s been my experience that blood means very little to most so more often than not, your friends are more family then blood will ever be. That’s not to take away from the importance of blood and heritage. It’s just what it is. Today I’m on an adventure with […]

Was there ever really a choice?

I understand that everything is just a matter of choices. Go this way, all these roads open, yet others are closed. It all just boils down to what did you choose to do? So I understand the concept of choice. But what if the universe is just peppering your life with a certain kind of […]

Paranoia

I’ll be coming out of the gas station, masked up of course, and I’ll see this car rolling through the gas islands. Just creeping by and I immediately feel like they are watching me or looking for me or following me. Like all over I get this feeling that everyone is suspect, everyone is shady […]

Battle Lust

My time management is trash. I can’t seem to pull it together. It’s almost like I’m stuck in molasses, like I’m living life in slow motion at times. I make plans and I truly do intend to stick to the plan but as things happen shit changes and the ETA steadily drifts further from its […]

Fire Tornadoes sent from God

I would never tell you that being in my life was ever gonna be easy. And I can’t honestly tell you that it is even gonna be worth it. In fact I will guarantee problems. I’m not an easy person to deal with. I’m abrasive and unfiltered. Brutally raw. There will be problems. My middle […]

Illusions

I’m a flexible thinking type of guy. Basically I agree that something is true, only until it is proved that it’s not. With that being said, everything is actually just an illusion. If everything is flexible, therefore making nothing actually real, then everything has to be an illusion. Time is an illusion. Distance is just […]

More often than not

So when I was a kid, one of my girlfriend’s friend told her, “If you hang out with dogs you’re gonna get fleas.” That shit pissed me off. Like fuck you bitch I’m not no dog. But with time comes hindsight, and looking back it looks a little different, and while that bitch can still […]

Long Strange Trip it’s Been

My journey to active addiction began at the tender age of 8, where I took my first hit of weed. Now I know you’re gonna tell me that weed’s not a drug and I’m gonna stop you there by telling you I couldn’t agree more. But for me it’s not so much what, but why? […]

Changes

It never fails to amaze me exactly how fast it takes for a person to completely flip script on you. One minute being absolutely ok with the person that you are and the next, being repulsed by you, criticizing and second guessing everything you say or do. It’s insane how people can completely forget all […]