Trust issues

I learned a long time ago that there truly is only one person you will ever be able to count on and that person is you. Truth be told, everybody falls off. And so I have trust issues. It is crazy to me how unreliable and shady the general public really is. It used to be that all you had was your word. They can steal everything else, but your word was yours. Nobody could steal that shit. And so it actually meant something. At least to me it did. It does. But I guess I’m alone in this sense. Seems like anyone will tell you just about anything but when it comes time to show up? Nowhere to be found. And when you mention it it’s turned around on you like you’re the asshole. Society is in decay. Our humanity is dying right before our eyes. People care less and less about the well being of others, becoming more and more self-absorbed daily. They talk out of both sides of their necks, being all chummy and pretending to be your friend but as soon as you’re gone they will be running their mouths about what a piece of shit you are. If you call yourself my friend yet sit back while someone is bad mouthing me, possibly even joining in. Yeah we ain’t friends. Some of y’all have no problems taking shit from the table but you sure the fuck can’t add nothing back. Takers. Leaches. Vultures. I don’t do things for people with the expectation of them doing something for me in return. I do things for people because # 1; they need help and I am able to provide them with said help, and #2; it makes me feel good. Don’t get that shit twisted, I don’t owe you shit. Nobody does. I don’t have to do the things I do, I choose to. So appreciate what you get. Be grateful you got what you got because there’s some that are not as lucky. Stop saying you will do something if you can’t produce. Attempt to understand that the world in fact does not revolve around you and that people actually owe you nothing. Oh, and if you don’t actually like me. If you look down on me and think yourself better then I am. Well then what the fuck are you doing around here? Why don’t you fuck off? I don’t care if you like me or not. I am very capable and need you for nothing so don’t bother even offering your help or services if you are just gonna flake out and waste my time. I don’t need people in my life who’s word is no good. I have more then enough snakes in my life. I need to be able to trust you, I want to be able to trust you but if you show time and again that you’re full of shit, that you actually don’t give a fuck about me at all, in fact you think I’m some kinda joke then get the fuck on before you get spit on. Lose my number and forget my name.

Published by devilmonkey666

I'm a hot mess. A 41 year old child who still doesn't know what he wants to be when he grows up. Or even if he wants to grow up for that matter. People say I'm a writer. I'm not so sure. But it is therapeutic and helps me from going all the way left sometimes.

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